Karaoke.
I think i might have found sumthing to be addicted to. To release myself.
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How do u deal with depression and negativity? How do u let it out? How do u smile again? Some ppl choose to release it through sports(punching, running) to get their mind off it; some choose to drink in sorrow; some choose to cut themselves; some choose to express it through art and music; some choose to write it down; some choose to do the exact same thing that made them depressed, inflicting the pain on themselves; and some choose to simply run away.
Whatever it is, there is a way of dealing with it.
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Lately, i found myself going thru some things i never thought will happen in my life. It is really wrecking me up. Worse is i dunno what to do about it. I have all these pent-up feelings inside me. Like a war was going on...
Good thing is, i found a way to relieve those frustrations...and that is, to sing K!!
When i sing, i really threw my emotions into it. Let everything be washed away by the loud music and my own terrible singing. Laugh my way out of my saddest thoughts. Enjoying other people's company. Even if it means i'll be screaming my head off, it doesnt matter. Even if it'll make my voice sound hoarse, i'll scream my lungs out till i forget everything.
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I told a friend before that i never paid attention to lyrics when it comes to songs. I usually pay more attention to the beats, the rhythm, the tone. I think its time for me to start paying attention to lyrics, so i can know what is the song for the current chapter or paragraph of my life. Or i wouldnt have to go 'omg...so the lyrics are like this?'.
I wanna be released. And i'm already halfway through it. I can make it.

